caught in traffic

I feel caught in traffic. Like a small vessel trying to find my way, as cars fly by at light speeds. If I go to fast, I will not be able to see where I am going. If I go to slow I will be hit by both sides.

My lights are on, as I hover, trying to find my pace, trying to sweep away the cobwebs that are growing inside the chambers of my inner doors.

There's a widow spider inside my brain, she is not black but blue, triggering nerons to act in mysterious way upon this cold morning.

On another note in the hidden moments of my car rides to and from work, I tend to listen to 'girl' music. I really love the sound, and the meaning of this song. Though the meaning of the song doesn't relate to this current moment in my life, it permemates back to a girl I once knew.

"Almost Lover"

Your fingertips across my skin

The palm trees swaying in the wind

ImagesYou sang me Spanish lullabies

The sweetest sadness in your eyes

Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy

I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover

Goodbye, my hopeless dream

I'm trying not to think about you

Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance

My back is turned on you

I should've known you'd bring me heartache

Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street

You took my hand and danced with me

Images

And when you left you kissed my lips

You told me you'd never ever forget these images, no

I never want to see you unhappy

I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover

Goodbye, my hopeless dream

I'm trying not to think about you

Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance

My back is turned on you

I should've known you'd bring me heartache

Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean

I cannot drive the streets at night

I cannot wake up in the morning

Without you on my mind

So you're gone and I'm haunted

And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that easy

To walk right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover

Goodbye, my hopeless dream

I'm trying not to think about you

Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance

My back is turned on you

I should've known you'd bring me heartache

Almost lovers always do