medicated and french fried...

realized today, that if I miss a dose of my medication, I become bizarre, and tend to hate, or loath most of humanity.
because of this I am officially 'french fried', meaning that I am a pill popping american, who can't stand society unless I take my happy little pills..
I get to meet with my head doctor, she will most likely up my dose, because I am still anxiety ridden, especially before bed- it takes me for ever to fall asleep, and again here I am popping natural herbs to fall asleep, now staying asleep for a whole night, is something I am trying to work on.
sometimes i wish things were legal here in Ohio, and if I consume it I won't lose my placement in my program..

i'm done

after therapy yesterday, I realize I been holding onto friendship's that are not healthy for me. I realize I have grown, or have different values, then those who I may of been close to in the pass. I use to say, I will always be there, but this time is my time to say no.
sorry for my parting, but it's my turn to walk away..