It's summer

and blogging is not really on my list of things to do.
soooooooooooooooooooooooooo, when i am back in the self analyzing myself phase, i'll come back here--
till then catch me on the flip side

I am a IRS write off-expense budget Monkey-
numb to the taste0 a million dollar casket
built one mile high

I am laughing as the economy crashes
as i dive into the capitalism wasteland

'oh' the emulsion
of dusty bones of 401 k plans
and the fumes of outsourcing
leaves one choking
for GREAT DEALS-- BUY< BUY Now!!

speculation lines oil tycoons pockets
making record profits for those very few
but this is only old NEWS

News which can be bought and sold
spun into flashes of spit on the electric tv screen
flat screen 25 inches wide
produced and manupliated
by those very same famlies with oil pockets
oh to only own the world

but some would disagree with me
say all information
is for the free!

i say for the free, for the fee-

but what is freedom anyway?
when it cost a buck o' nine-

are we free to choose any house to live in
free to walk our city state
free to afford the land that grows
free to speak our minds?
free to roam the streets at night
with out fear, with out tapped phone lines?

are we free to live with out suspsion? and credit card debts-

if you ask me what's wrong with america today-
my answer simple, sweet-
martha stewart has her own show on channel five-

its offical

I will be starting school again this fall. I signed my loans online, it was a big step forward for me, committing me to stop talking about it and just go. I realized after being denied another job for this election season because I have a family, and can't dedicate 14 hour days to the cause, that I am done. I am burned, and I am tired of pushing a candidate who I deem the lesser of two evils.
My overall plan is to work part-time on campus, and bring Ezra to school with me, so he can go to daycare there. So I can peek in, and if I have to study, hopefully I can get it done. If working part-time doesn't go so well, well then we will be budgeting hard core on loans. Sadly taking out more then I would like to-
But I need to think about the future, then settling for a job that pays the bills, that i don't really enjoyed, and find utterly mindless.
My next step is making an appointment with my adviser to see what I have to take. I know I will have a ton of math classes, since I took Logic at Miami, to get my math credit for my degree, and I haven't had a math class since high school, where I didn't pay much attention to it. I know I have tested out, and accomplish all my English credits. so hopefully I won't be sitting around waiting for classes I need, because I haven't fulfilled my math requirements and those are prerequisites.

I have felt a bit lonely lately. yes I do have friends, but it's hard for me to reach out and touch someone.

right now I am just trying to figure out what to do-

hot

or humid- summer has came back to the ohio Sky's, leaving a sticky wrath to all that abide-
the fourth of july has reign a goodbye- leaving feeling of do we live in a police state?

Sometimes you just need ice-cream

Life has been a narrow canal recently-
In the last week I hit some rapids, that have been coming for months-
The rapids are hard to fight through, tears spread in to the water like canons bursting
into flame-
thins are resolving, slowly, like spring grass rising-

I am to metaphoric tonight-

Again I am enjoying the weather, it's not climbing over 90 anymore, and I am watching the oaks and maples grow into the summer sky- the sky is a deeper royal blue, then normally this year-

anyhow- i am saving my general rants and raves for another day-

just trying to relax